Lovely and well written; thanks Susan. It may be a hormonal thing but it is most certainly a pleasure. I think that by the time we women are into our breeding years, we have experienced the great disappointment of falling madly in love with the wrong guy. I know I went through enormous disappointments with my choice of lovers.
Maybe it was the society that I “hung out” with; Calfifornia beach bums and then the Hollywood crowd. When I finally found a man who I felt was over and above the shallow grade of men, I put my eggs literally in his basket and prepared to make this a life commitment. He had been the son of a Baptist Minister and had all the programming set in cement that women are their property and when I had 2 girls, I knew it was over. He brought a son from a former marriage but he ignored the boy and simply handed him to my care. I loved it! I got custody of him in our divorce.
Our family team soon ignored Daddy Bear and in a few years he wandered off with his secretary. I knew that he would not be the father image I had in mind and I protected my cubs from the old fart. I was so disappointed that I knew that I would never marry again. I dated but never seriously and have stayed single all this time. The kids survived and ended up stronger in character than had my husband stuck around. He married his secretary and had another girl baby who is in and out of drugs and a total failure. The old man is on wife number 5 and I consider myself damned lucky to be rid of him.
I truly believe that his early childhood programming under a Baptist God is what ruined his life. His total disrespect for women caused his first wife to killl herself and another one to overdose with drugs. The longer I live, I see the harm that a hateful God inflicts on people. If Jesus started out as a loving son of God, his followers have destroyed the whole silly story.